JuJu's Pink Nightmare

Hooked on anime, j-drama and others online

2009-02-18T01:36:34Z

Oh lord, ever since I got high-speed internet, I can't stop watching stuff on it. I have already seen princess princess D, lots of my fav. yaoi ova (and some I didn't know existed), Here is greenwood drama, Boy Love movies I and II(yaoi j-drama), tons of Vocaloid videos, Toradora episodes 1 through 19, and Now Hana-kimi drama.

I also check my e-mails, livejournal, and myspace more. But I must say, don't sent me forwards, I don't like them. Just cause I check e-mails more, doesn't give you the right to clutter my inbox with anything you find online. This doesn't just go to family, I mean friends too! (If only Ruth and Arleen could read my journal...)

I have been ignoring my Wii (although not too much since I updated the soft-ware and downloaded a few free channels), and my PSP. I know I shouldn't considering the fact that I have some lent games to finish. I also haven't finished some of my own games that I bought or were given to me as gifts. I want to finish them, but I always seem to get drawn in by my laptop. It starts with turning it on to work on some typing exercises, I turn on the MSN to see if any one appears online while I practice. After I'm done I check my e-mails, then I start to wonder if this or that is available online. I look it up and watch the first episode to see if its any good. By the time I realize I'm hooked, its episode seven of the second consecutive series I searched for.

Oh well, I guess it can't be helped. Well, it probably can be, I just don't want to. Well, thats all I came to complain about...my own bad habit.

High-speed glory

2009-02-06T23:59:15Z

I got high-speed internet! I got tired of the constants fight over "who's internet day is it?" and the "get off the internet cause I need the phone" bickering. Trying to convince my dad has failed many times over. So I got pissed and got it my self. I told my family that who ever wants high speed internet can talk to me and we can strike a deal for the payment and share. But if I hadn't done it, no one would have. And what do you know, every one agreed that its better and struck a deal with me. Now we don't fight over the internet days, we can use the phone at the same time and everyone is happy. At least, when it comes to internet. We still have other issues to work on, but all in due time.

Xmas spirit, presents, fucked up work hours and more

2008-12-24T07:54:11Z

I finally did my xmas shopping, thanks to a lot of pushing on my side, and some cooperation and pity from other sides. I mostly got gift-cards, that way they can decide what to get cause I have no clue. I love them all, but most are a pain to shop for. If they don't already have it, they don't like the one I bought or expected more. What can I do? The best I can do for such picky code slinging hinters. I'm sorry, but when it comes to gift hints I'm as dense as a boy. Heck, lots of boys get gift hints that I could never get in my life! Its why I usually ask point blank:"what do you want for xmas?". When they start their:"hmmm, I don't know." I now just think 'gift-card'.

Speaking of xmas, the xmas spirit finally appeared in my house. It appeared in the form of candy canes and jingle bells! I shit you not! All you have to do is oogle our xmas tree! It has regular and multy-colored candy canes. It also have oodles of red and silver jingle bells. Every time you brush against the tree, it jingles merrily. It also has the usual silver balls and glass angel. Its just so cute! We also filled up a container with mixed shelled nuts and my dad (like always) put on some xmas song CD. While I sat there in the living-room staring around it sorta really hit me, its xmas!

Talk about xmas spirit, or lack there of, I have a busy as hell schedule for work this week. I hate having to wake up on both xmas eve and xmas to go to work. At least I hope to share with family a little in the morning. Not much since I go in for early shifts. At least I don't get out too late. I hope I do get to visit my older sis, or that she visits while I'm home. I don't know when I'll see my friend this week. Or when I'll see my other friend, if I do get to at all. Heck, I don't know what to do about New Year, I know I don't wanna spend it in some distant relative's house feeling as uncomfortable and out of place as hell. Don't really mind a quiet night at home.

That whole friends thing also reminds me of how worried I am about a friend of mine, hope she pulls through. Funny how I went through something similar to her situation ten years ago and have no real idea of how to truly help her.

Well that's all I can think of updating about right now, till next time!

More spoiling, a small sleigh and a bunch of other stuff

2008-12-18T04:49:39Z

So I did buy the USB and other stuff. I bought Guitar Hero world tour, Elebits and some four shirts for work. That reminds me that I'm not done with xmas shoping. I have barely started, by that I mean I only have one present down and nine more to go. People cant really blame me, the xmas spirit is hardly there in my house. All we have is a small sleigh on our dining room table. And on top, my father's meds. Dude, its almost xmas and we dont even have a tree! This is just plain fucking sad! Heck, my busy as hell older sister has her tree already! Guess it suits me just fine since I dont get vacation from work and my classes end in fucking xmas eve! Well, just a day before, but thats cause I only have two classes on the same days. I dont know, I barely have time to shop cause people keep making me busy every free minute I have. Its always something like homeworks, no waiting for me or telling me when they are going somewhere or just detaining me for the sake of something or other thing they decide to have me do. Sometimes I think people are finally going to aid me in my search for presents but they either bail out on me or change their minds. I dont think its gonna be a good xmas. It started all wrong, the one thing I do feel about the ambiance is the freaking cold weather.

Omg! I'm totally spoilling my self!

2008-11-24T21:07:33Z

Oh god, what the hell am I doing? I've totally spoiled my self this month. I bought a second wii-mote with its numbchuck, the games Nights and Bust-a-move Bash, I got the membership card for Gamestop for a year, and I bought my self two pair of casual pants. Not to mention the 1 GB USB I want for my classes. Well the pants I kinda need for work, and the USB is cause the only one I have is braking (I need it for class). Oh, and I did buy those ear-rings that I mention last time.
Thank god I have a mini fortune or I'd be broke. I better slow down my spending. I also spent on going to see Twilight, which was awesome, and more junk food. Thank god I dont have to buy books this time (for school that is). Though I did buy a book about names and how they affect our personalities. It was just so acurate!! Well thats really all folks.

About bad moods, newbees, broken pants, earings and more!!

2008-11-19T05:41:06Z

I've been in a bit of a bad mood lately. I'm trying to be a bigger person and admit I wronged some people that didnt deserve it. To those, I'm deeply sorry. To the ones provoking me, pleas stop, I dont want to end up hurting you (*sighs* all the senseless violence and for what? pride?). Actually, as time passed (cause I asked for time to cool off from both provoking and non-provoking parties) I feel like I'm better. I think in a way, I got over it and my self (or so I hope). Thou I doubt it really has much to do with it, I noticed that according to my calender, its time for PMSing. I also noticed an increase in my, usually big, appetite. Its worse, and its aiming for meat. Not to mention that my face is braking out in pimples.

So, this week, the newbees appear out of thin air. Four of them, two are the plastic type, the other two, I'm not sure, but they seem the lazy type. One can only hope things go well. One the same day they appeared, I tore my pants when they got caught on a counter door's lock. It made a big hole that I had to clip together so I could continue with my shift.

Today I went window shopping and ended up buying some small sensitivity compatible ear-rings of shimmering snowflakes to wear for x-mas. I also bought junk food too.

On a hopeless note, I work thursday and cant go out cause I work a late shift from 6:30 to 11:30. I am however, free friday. Wonder if I'll go anywhere.

Homeworks from hell, tuition debts from hell and other hellish things

2008-10-08T19:43:07Z

Omg! Now I remember why I didnt wanna study again. Damn homeworks from hell! 133 words to practice, four lines worth of practice that is! Oh and did I tell you about portfolios and such filled with projects that are worth grades. The portfolio it self is half a grade thanks to that.

Not to mention paying the expensive tuition and then enrolling for the next trimester only to have it be even more expensive cause of 2, count them 2, more credits! Thats all it took to make my tuition unbearable. Now its 1300 something and I still havent mentioned books cause I dont know how much its gonna be. Thank God I saved 3000 something or I'd be very screwed. But now I have to postpone the car thing even more. I wonder what I did in a past life to deserve this.

Well, I'll just do what I must to get ahead. If you can call this getting ahead.

Well thats all I wish to rant about for now. Later!!!

juju is going back to school!!!

2008-08-03T06:13:08Z

OMG, hi people!! I'm so sorry for not updating in july. I was just so damn busy! So to let you all know, first lets start with the tittle. I'm a student again!! I got in to National College, which is near my house, and I'm gonna study office system (sistema de oficina). For the ones that dont know, thats what you study to become a pro secretary. Its not a bachelor degree cause I'm not sure I can pay it. But I will try at least an associates degree. If I see that I can finish the bachelor...then, maybe I'll change it and finish it. I'm being cautious cause the one paying my studies is me!!

Speaking of, since I'm studying, I'm gonna postpone getting a car. Before I enrolled to study again, I did almost buy a car. But the guy sold it the day before I had planned to see it. So, since my mom promised to help me in the transportation department cause I work and study close, I'm gonna post pone getting a car. That is until I have amounted enough to buy one and not affect the college and cellphone payments. Untill then, all I can do is pray my mom doesnt forget me when I have to study or work.

This also affects my job hunting. Since I'm studying, I'm in no position to hunt for another job. This is because I dont think I can handle working two part/times and studying. If I do get an interview, I'm gonna go, but I'm also gonna warn them about my situation. I do only go to school two days of the week in the morning. But that still only leaves me free in the morning for other jobs cause the cinema is only open in the afternoon. We'll see what happens, I've been known for eating my words.

So the new Wallmart near my house opened. Thats ok except for one thing. People are freaking out!! On the first day (and ever since then) the place is packed. Because my sis, my mom and me were bored, we actually went to opening day. The people in there were acting like the place was gonna close the next day and never open again. I thought for a few secs that I was at a festival near my house! Thats how noisy it was! I swear, people saw it open and it was like:"OMG!! A WALLMART!!". Wanna know what I was thinking? I was quoting Jeff Dunham in my head as Walter: "Welcome to wallmart, get your shit and get out!!". And I seriously wanted to say that when mom stood on line to the cash register. Poor mom stood there while me and Zuzu scrambled around checking out things and looking for stuff we actually needed. By the end of it, we couldnt even find the car cause it was dark out and the parking lot seemed to go for miles!! Even so, I saw it as an adventure... while poor Zuzu was traumatized from being trapped in a store that huge with that many people in it.

Anyway, my birthday is coming up, and I already got some presents in advance. My older sis gave me a necklace, my lil sis gave me black ugg boots and six pairs of ear-rings, my mom gave me two pair of jeans and is holding off something for the actual day (figuring it out is driving me crazy), and I bought my self a yaoi comic book and a t-shirt of happy bunny. I still have no real idea of what to do for my birthday. Heck, I dont even know if I'll get it free like last year. I sure as hell hope so, it would be nice.

Well, thats all for now. As you can see, I've been busy. Trust me, between working, getting all the documents for college, trying to get a car and other such misadventures, I really didnt have time to update in july.I almost did when me and some friends crashed the 4th of july party in El gran melia hotel. Didnt last long cause we were tired from driving around trying to find a place to see fire works after they didnt let us in the Conquistador cause there was some sort of private party going on. I also did almost...when I got that awful stomach virus and then after a week of that got my period, but I was in too much pain to concentrate long enough to type it. So there you go,now you also know I got really sick on july. Man, what an awful month for me!! Worst of all, a month before my birthday month. I hope my luck improves.

Well, see ya later.!!

Credit cards, weddings, plumbing and long work hours.

2008-06-18T04:42:32Z

I havent updated in a while, have I?

Anyway, the credit card:

I was at Sears searching for clothes for the wedding and found some real nice things. When I went to pay I decided to use the credit card just to create credit history. When I handed it over I held my breath hoping it was still activated ( once I didnt use it for a year and it deactivated). So after the transaction went through, a bright idea hit me: "I should use the credit card for all the wedding attire expenses!!". And so I did. I bought the pants and shirt, ear-rings and necklaces, two pair of shoes and a purse. Needles to say, I ran up the bill to at least a hundred and fifty something or more. So basically, there goes my next pay check.

Weddings:

My older sis got married and made me the middle man...er...woman for the whole day. She gave me keys and papers for the church and priest. She also told me to let the cake guy in. She told me to seat the guests. And clean up the church after the wedding. Now for a list of the unexpected:

1. It rained and I had to mop cause the roof of the church had leaks everywhere.

2. I ran around the church trying to find the ceiling fan's switch (my poor feet).

3. The groom went missing and that quickly turned in to a lot of phone calls.

4. My grandma wouldnt shut up and the guests were getting antsy so I had to kinda run around giving explanations as to why was the bride was late.

5. I was suffocating cause there werent enough fans in the church and I was constantly moving.

6. My aunt parked where the bride's car was supposed to be.

7. I forgot to give out the bubbles for the end and had to run around giving them out only to be blinded by the early blowers that were goofing off while I moved around.

8. The chair people came late and I helped them load the chairs on the flatbed of the car/truck while my dad just stared (ow, my arms).

Plumbing:

The AAA guys were checking some of the man-holes about some clog and mom some how coax one of them to fix our outer-plumbing and our toilet for just $50. But the toilet still leaks cause it needs some cement on the base to which my lazy father that was supposed to do the work responded with: "But the cement was right there!! Why didnt she give it to them?". Nice dad, real nice.

Long work hours:
Ok, I'm glad cause I'm getting fatter checks, but why are they giving me so many hours? Not even Fajardo gave me that many! And there are more of us now too!! Its only upsetting me cause its summer and my friends are all free to hang out....but I cant.

Aside from all that crazyness that kept me (and still is ) busy all this time, its been quite alright. The fat checks will pay my credit card bill, my sis's wedding seem perfect and the toilet is mostly fixed. Personally I'm a bit put off by not being able to find time to see the new movies, but I guess all good things do come with sacrifices.

On a random note, my older sis called home today to ask me only about some info. of the PSP. First, how did she know I was home? And second, would it have hurt her to ask how I was doing? Guess she was just overly excited about something...( a new PSP maybe?).

Rant rant rant.....

2008-05-05T03:45:39Z

Ugh, I hate being in period. I cant do anything when I'm in it. I get pain, nausea, drowsiness and get irritated by stuff faster than usual. I cant stand it!!! Thank God its almost over by now, cause I wanna go out and stuff.

I also need to go out to get mom a mother's day present. But every time I ask her about what she wants (that isnt a $100 oven) she never tells me! She says :"Let me think about it...." and then disappears to do something else! I'm NOT getting her that oven! Its not her birthday OR christmas!! I hardly spend that much on my self on a daily basis (or monthly) and I'm trying to save up for a car! What in the fucking world makes her think I'm gonna spend that much on mother's day for her? For Gods sake, I'm not rich you know! And it took me for EVER to amount what I have for a car!!!

Speaking of cars, I'm still looking around for prices and stuff. Mind you, what I want is a Toyota, I dont want any other car cause I'M the one spending on it. I have to like it. But people still try to push other stuff on to me!! My God, who the hell is gonna drive it? ME!! So next time someone else gets any idea to try and push a car I dont like up my nose, eyes and mouth, shut it!! Dont even speak to me!! *Sighs* The last thing I need is more stress about getting a car!! And trust me, its not that I dont want help, its that I dont want people making it worst by un-helping me. You wanna help me? dont give me half-assed info. Tell me year, color, price and condition. And please dont think I'm gonna buy it on the spot, I have people that know about cars that I'm gonna need to make an appointment with so they look at it and tell me if its ok. If it didnt pass their test, dont be hurt, you still helped me. Just....just dont push car deals on to me, your just going to get on my nerves. One example about this is when my mom wanted me to check a car at her fav. mechanics house. To start, it wasnt Toyota, worst, it was luxurious but old, and the parts need to be imported (not to mention expensive). On top of that, mom didnt know how much gallon per miles it gave!! This stuff is important to me cause if it brakes down, I need to be able to afford the parts, and save some gas money while I'm at it too. This is why I like Toyota! The parts? Here! Gallons per miles? Come one people, they are known for saving people some money in gas!

Phew, now that thats out of my system, I can tell you all about some other stuff. Like the fact that I finished Lucky Star and I'm finishing Patapon! As soon as I do, I should work on the gamecube games, and try to finish seeing E's otherwise. Poor series probably has a nice coat of dust and spider-web all over it. Now that I remember...I dont think I'll ever fully pass Lumines. Its too hard and brakes my brain. If I try to pass it till the end I'm sure I'll end up like a vegetable. Unless I get in a zone on concentration. Its the only way I can pass stuff. But its pretty easy to break my concentration lately. Guess Its lack of something...dunno what...

Well, thats all the shit I can think of, later!!

Change of plans, aliens, series and unfinished games.

2008-04-25T02:12:04Z

So, how are you all....good? good. I've been pretty ok my self. Though I kinda stopped playing Patapon for a while and only used my new control like...twice? I did play Patapon again yesterday. I dont know whats up, I'm probably just being lazy. Anyway, I did go to Ruthy's pool, it was nice, but I spent to much time in it and got burned really bad. My friend from far away didnt come see me that week, but she did the next. She was here a bit longer that usual. Perhaps its cause she was alone.

Whats new? I updated my resume and went job hunting with Flare. I did go to Plaza las Americas today, but I didnt do much there. Flare, how ever, got some games she had reserved. Shes probably sitting at home right now, happy as a clam, playing games. Hope she has fun!

Oh! The alien thing that Flare makes reference to in her journal is easy for me to explain. We were walking around the mall looking for the bank and I decided to ask for directions. Apparently this is not common, and apparently neither is Flare antics and speach pattern (though that one I suspected). It looks like my behavior and ability to understand what Flare is saying isnt common. Its not like she speaks that way all the time, just some times. We also started to make a bit of fun at some idiotic behavior seen in most of the population and Flare kept saying "Damn shiznos" (R vs B reference). After a while we concluded that we must be from another species. Thus the alien jokes ensue.

This and last week, while Flare visited/stayed over, she brought Torchwood with her. That was pretty fun for me...if you dont understand why, watch it! That reminds me that I should finish seeing Lucky Star and E's otherwise. I left E's otherwise at eps. 8 cause I got distracted with Patapon. And I left Lucky Star at eps. 16 cause Flare started to bring Torchwood. And my sis worries that I dont watch enough normal anime series. That also reminds me that I finally finished reading Tramps like us, or Kimi wa pet.

I got back my Sims 2 pets for the PSP. That might put Patapon on hold for me for a bit...or so I thought. Every time I turn the damn thing on I say to my self: " One more mission and I'll play Sims 2 pets." But after three hours I still dont put it down until my eyes start to hurt (or my arms, from holding the PSP). At least, thats what happened yesterday. I should also play with my Wii, but the PS2 is still plugged instead from watching Torchwood. While we were at gamestop, we looked through a magazine and she pointed out a free online game I should try, but I shot down the idea on account that I havent touched FLYFF (another online free game) for months now.

Well, I pretty much just wrote the stuff I was gonna say. See ya all later!

Piercings, video games, weddings and other things.

2008-04-01T03:15:11Z

So last saturday I had it free from work and decided to go out with friends. We went to plaza las americas so one of them could get a birthday present for a teacher. Anyway, I went and got my ears pierced a second time. Yup, I now sport a second hole in each lobe with white gold studs embeded on them. After that I went to see the video games stores in search for a gamecube control and the game "Patapon" for the psp. Why a gamecube control? cause I have a lot of gamecube games lent to me by friends so I can play'em on my Wii.

Back to the re-telling of my trip to plaza las americas... I know I spent a lot of money and it WILL set me back a bit with the car thing, but I wanted to treat my self. Later at home my control was used to play Brawl. It was fun, I was losing my life first all the time, but it was still fun. As for the Patapon game, well I got stuck very fast, got help and now I'm trying to pass it. And what ever did happen to my piercing? They get disinfected 3 times a day and its the only piercings I wear to work so they dont get on my case. Little note about the disinfecting part: I rather use cotton balls instead of Q-tips. Why? cause poking my ear with the Q-tip bothered me a bit and you wet more of the ear with a cotton ball.

About the wedding part? My sister moved her wedding to June. Poor thing is so stressed over it, she needs a day in a spa. At least thats what I said on our way to Best Buy. Our excuse? Ruth needed to check out some vacumes (or how ever you write that). There I discovered rather late that they had Patapon two bucks cheaper. Oh the anger, oh the agony, oh I so wanted to strangle some one while saying "I fucking knew this would happen!". But noooo, since I thought I'd never get the chance to go there, I bought it in plaza las americas. Never gonna be that hasty ever again.

Another piece of news, we now have a baby bird in our house. The little one fell from a nest on the ceiling of the second floor of the house next to ours. So we cant put it back in the nest, and when we put him outside to see if the parents would get him, a crow tried to grab him as lunch. My mom, put it in a basket covered with paper-towel so it wont get cold. She feeds it bread soaked in milk with tweezers. It seems to not have broken anything vital and poops ok, so we know he is passing the food ok. We named it Tweety for now cause he tweets and doesnt shut up. As soon as it grows more feathers and learns to fly, we will release him back in to the wild.

Speaking of wild, that can actually describe the state of my room. Lately I've been leaving it so messy. Also, I've been in it less and not letting people in it as much any more. I think I'm going through a phase....hope its just a phase. Anyway, I'm not gonna force my self to be as lenient about my room as I used to be, it just gets me angry at my self later cause its not what I want. So for now, I'd appreciate it if people would respect my current wishes. Mean while, I'll look for a remedy to my recent extra-bitchiness. I think something is bothering me subconsiously more than what I think it is. Or maybe I just need some fresh air.

I have friday and saturday free again this week. This friday I'm gonna see if a friend that lives a bit far can visit me cause she wants to see my piercings. And on saturday I'm gonna see if I can go to the beach with some friends. And this is just in: tomorrow, I'm gonna have friends over to play Brawl after work. Lets see if it all even happens, I'll make sure to let you all know. Later!!

The con and other stuff that I havent updated about

2008-03-10T01:15:25Z

This time I was able to go to the con. I bought three mangas(all of them yaoi) and one series on dvd (I havent been able to finish watching it). I had fun and it wasnt so bad cause this time they had new stuff that at least "I" hadnt seen before. I took lots of pictures of the cosplayers and other fun stuff, but I have dialup so I'm not gonna post them. I'll let flare do that, if she wants. I gave her all the pictures of that day (mine and my sis's). My friends from carolina took for ever to get there, but they did...right when it finished. So that was a good thing cause I didnt have to take the train to Rio Piedras and wait for mom (That was plan B in case my friends failed at getting there). That day at the con I wasnt so worried about spending cause I got my income tax return (a nice check of $385.) I spent $50 on me and $20 on my friend as an over due birthday gift. Too bad I never got to go to the ATM...or maybe I should see that as a good thing.

On other news, I now have close a enough amount of money needed for the car. still need a bit more for the "just in case" expences that are bound to pop up like the nasty little surprises they are. Well, being the cautious person that I am, I will wait. I'm also gonna take some people with me to help me examine the cars once I have the money. Mean while, I'm checking out the classified adds online to see whats out there. I see a lot of things I like and some that make me go "fuck that!".

So I know you guys heard from my sis that she has to wear glasses now. Poor thing cant see things without distorting them a little. She said that she got her self some emo looking glasses. Soon she'll only wear black, cover half her face with hair and curse the world on a daily basis (oh wait, I think she already does the last one). Ah, the emo world claims another victim. Hehe, just kidding...or am I?

Thank you Flare for lending me Luminese. After almost wanting to brake my PSP in pure frustration, I discovered that skin mode is supposed to be just for playing it like that. Then I played the challenge and vs comp. mode and finally found purpose to the game. Tho when I got to the puzzle mode, I wanted to brake the PSP again. You mind telling me how the hell I'm supposed to make a small cross? am I just supposed to fill the areas up or something? I dont get it!! T.T

Tomorrow I have to work...yes, I have to work on a monday. Why? Cause I asked for tuesday free cause I have to go renovate my medical plan and it takes for ever. So tomorrow I'll go to work at 3:00pm , find out the rest of my work days and then get out at 8:00pm. Guh, I have to work with some of the annoying ones tomorrow. I dont like them cause they dont like me and didnt even bother to give me a chance from the start. I'll just do what I normally do, ignore them and watch my back.

Well, I think thats all I wanted to update, bye!

corn allergy, broken shoes and other nonsence.

2008-02-29T03:54:26Z

So right when I get out of the car at my work place parking lot, my shoe gets caught and the sole rips almost all the way off. Since it was almost time for me to clock-in I decided to work under these conditions. When my co-workers found out, they had a field-day. I consented most of the comment just cause I found the situation just as funny. During my brake I went to Payless shoes to see their selection, but it was limited and expensive. Today I went to Kmart and found one of the same pairs (or a similar one) two bucks cheaper. Still expensive tho, but I bought them anyway. I hope they are worth every penny or I'll never bother to spend that mush on work shoes ever again.

Today while driving I kinda didnt mesure ok and bumped the wheels with the side isle with grass near Kmart's parking-lot. You can imagine my mom's horror, but it was just a light graze and I just got away with a warning from her. On the way back home I kept telling her that I'd be more careful in the future cause I know that if something happens to the car while I'm driving, I'll have to pay the repairs.

So today when I got up at un-godly hours, I decided to download Hindu music videos for the heck of it. All were from Prabhu Deva cause I liked him ( mostly his fisical comedy) in the so called "Crazy indian music video". I discover that the guy really is a good dancer (he even made a Michael Jackson parody in one of his videos...he dances better than the actual thing!!). His other videos are just as fun, the music is always danceable and its really worth looking up his videos. He doesnt dance anymore tho, most of his videos are from the 90s, but now he direct videos. After putting them to download I went to sleep again and saw them later.

Two hours after dinner I went to my room to go online. I was waiting for my dad to do something on the internet but it turned out he decided not to go in. I took out Picard (my laptop) and decided that it was too dirty with dust and random snot mini dots (well, I've been sick...). So I took some baby wipes and decided to clean it. Only to plop down with it on my chest with some party mix and juice. So then I had my hands full of chetto's cheez and was adjusting the screen with said hands. I rememberd and took notice AFTER I was done eating the party mix and just whined to my self: 'That was sooo smart of me, NOT! Now I have to clean it again!'. And I did.

Speaking of tha party mix, I want more, even if its all corn T-T. I took benadryl before eating it the first time tonight tho. Hope I dont get too much of a bad reaction cause I cant find the Immodium pills to take tomorrow TxT.

Looking to pass time

2008-01-26T08:11:46Z

Kay, so I know I told already to some of yous that I passed my license, like, last september was it? Fine, let me go check and see.... yep, thats what it says. Well it does me no good without a car, so thats my new gold. Had a minor set-back this christmas saving money (specially cause I indulged on a brand spanking new Wii), but I'm gonna see if I can round up the necesary money. I need a car pretty bad cause I need to have something to move in. My parents go beserk on me in their cars cause they think I'm gonna crash them. They dont let me drive them alone or when we have to go somewhere far....unless its fajardo. And lately, not even there. Well, thats really cause I changed work place. It doesnt pay better, its basically the same shit, but its closer to home. Hopefully after a car to transport in, I'll be able to do other stuff I've been meaning to do. Well, one of them is getting a better job, but I've also been considering going back to school. Well, not reall school, but maybe take courses of something usefull like secretary or something. I dont know, I'm just gonna have to wait and see what I can do.

Mean time, I'm so cutting back on going out cause its the other reason why I couldnt save much this christmas. You know me, party like a rock star (yeah right). Its more the fact that I kept going out on expensive outings. Oh, and to those of you that cant pass sake...YOU FUCKING WIMPS!! Man I know I'm a light-weight drinker (yay, started a bad habit!!) but, come on!! Then again, my dad was a drinker, my older sister...is a light-weight but likes it and my lil sis can hold it well but doesnt go in to the habit of getting drunk. I think its in my genes...which personally I think is dangerous. I'll behave....now that christmas passed. Dunno what happened to me these past hollydays. For some small amout of time I could not passing a week without at least a smirnoff in my hand (weak alcohol, very sweet, easy to over drink). My mom even utter the words:"You are developing a bad habit." to which I said: "Oh come on mom!! I'm not drinking my self stupid every day, its just one bottle or two, once or twice a week!". My mother tends to over-react to shit. Did get drunk for new year's tho'. But thats another story for some other time....if you're lucky.

Lets see, what else is new? Got a new cellphone (dont ask for the number online, do it in person!), got my laptop fixed (halleluya!), got a few new friends (still dont trust them fully...), my older sis is getting married (OMG, its in may!!), got some new comics (more hollyday expences!!), thinking about changing my look ( involves painting hair and piercings...might not do it...), I need to change credit cards (must do research), and I dont know hat else. If I remember, I'll change this and edit it. Kay, bye!

Wii and other things

2008-01-10T04:13:54Z

I got the Wii, how I got it is a corporate secret (yay for working at game stop). Also got a game with it called "MY SIMS" and right now Flare lent me a game-cube game called "Zelda: the twilight princess". My older sister gave me a starter kit for it and a control charger for xmas. And I recently bought a 2 GB SD memory card for it. I'm pretty much set for now, thou I could use more games....but since lately I'm hardly ever home, Its pointless to get games I don't have time to pass. Two games are o.k. for now, after I pass them (and secure a few more checks) I'll get more. I did tel my family that they could get me games for xmas, but they saw the prices and asked me to ask for something else. I'd get more games my self, but I already told you why not. Besides, I think I've been spending too much.

This year I've been spending a lil too much on side stuff instead of saving for a car. This is something that I half regret and half don't. Why half? Cause I like what I bought!! But now I have to put a brake to my spending cause I need to really save for a car and I'm getting the boot in gamestop. Yeah, it sucks, they gave me the whole " we only hired you for the season speech, we told you at the beginning!" speech. Accompanied with the "Hours are going down so much cause its slow that there is hardly any hours for regulars, let alone any for seasonal." speech. So now I have to go job hunting again, maybe I'll find a full-time job....maybe.... If I do, its long overdo!

These are the times I wish I hadn't been so stubborn on studying art and had actually made something of my self. Now I'm paying for following a dream that I could only meet half way cause I live too far from the places that hire people in my area, and I don't have a car. Not to mention that I live in a country with a broken economic system. Chances are that if I do find a job in my area, it wont last me or it will be a position in the finalization of the printed art. In other words, folding and packaging jobs. The thought of spending the rest of my life smelling like glue makes me ill!! It also makes me want to cry....

Well, I brought it upon my self, there is nothing I can do except get lil job for the time being. I just hate the other option, getting married and becoming a house wife to a better payed man. Its like being sentenced to life in prison for me. To me its the death of the independence I never got. I hate the thought of being chained down to other people and have them own me. I feel so disgusted by the mere thought! I hate to think I cant make it on my own, people in my past have used the help they give me as means to tie me up and do what they say. Thoughts of never achieving real freedom make me want to brake down and cry. But I cant sit and cry for ever, I have to keep going, even if it hurts so much. The negative thoughts in my head are so hard to snuff out, but I do it by keeping busy. I keep busy with friends, work, going out, playing video games, reading manga and listening to music. But the moment I'm alone and awake, it all haunts me so bad, the thoughts are so loud....

Belz is now my second home?!

2007-11-22T06:24:47Z

Well, it might as well be...since I work there now! I got my transfer AND the second job, just like I wanted!! Ok, not exactly like I want, cause its the second week at the new job and they gave me only 1 day again. The manager did say that by the third week I would have more hours...lets just hope she wasnt lying to me.

So now I work at the cinema in Belz, and boy is it different! I got lost looking for things cause they put a lot of the stuff in very different places and orders. I'm sure that after a few weeks, I'll get the hang of it. I rather like to work at Game stop better cause I break my back less. But for now I'm just a seasonal worker and I'm not gonna risk leaving the other one (the permanent one) for that one.

On other news, you know that gas costs went up, right? Well, so did the electric bill, and my mom freaked. She was screeching at us to use less electricity and help pay the bill. My older (better payed) sister, who still lives there, said no, so mom turns her eyes at me. At first I started saying no, then, not really wanting to, offered her at least 30$. But mom noticed I didnt really want to and said no, that she would find a way to pay it. Then she asked us to conserve the electricity by turning off everything every time we leave a room. She also asked my older sis to unplug her mini fridge and put her stuff in the regular one.

Ok, I have to explain exactly why our mom didnt push us further. You see, my older sis has a major debt and is also saving for when she marries and moves out with her husband. While me, well, I made some mayor purchases this month...two cellphones...and their first bill. She also know that I'm trying to save for a car. Not to mention that my older sis and I had to lend money to mom while she waited for dad's check (I lended her 60 and sis, 10). She gave me back 50 cause I told her to deduct the usual 10$ I give her a week for gas, which amounts to 40$ a month! And thats why, girls and boys, she didnt bother me or my sis anymore.

Dont get the wrong idea, I know I live there mooching water electricity and food off them. But they dont pay anything else I could ever want or need. They dont buy me stuff, I do live there and eat there, but thats it! Like I said, I help pay gas (notice I said help), but I no longer get taken care of by them in any other way anymore. Actually, now my mom kinda puppy eyes me when we go buy stuff and shes only has to buy one thing. The result? A very giddy mom and her irritated daughter with the item included in her shopping bag. I swear, its like she becomes the kid that wants candy and begs the mom (me?) to buy it for her. I guess it is true what they say, the roles reverse once your parents start to get closer to their golden years. Hehe, my mom would totally try to strangle me if she hears this.

New phone and a possible transfer.

2007-11-06T02:41:52Z

So yeah, I changed phone companies and phone numbers. If you want it you have to ask me personally cause I'm not gonna post it. Now my phone is everything I want, it has blue tooth, camera, its a slider, plays mp3s, plays FM radio, has mobile Sims2 and Lumines as games, has internet, recieved free calls, free nights and weekends, etc., etc. I'm totally hooked on it! I cant stop taking photos, taking video, playing the little games, making calls and playing around with the music. Oh, theres something I forgot to tell ya, it came with a USB and software so I can take the pics to my laptop like a regular digital camera!! I'm sooo happy!! Anyway, I decided to put some sort of guaranty on it, some insurance in case of, well, ANYTHING! Cause I can always trust my ditzy ways to destroy it somehow, so I made it "me" proof.

On other news, I decided to ask for a transfer to Bellz outlets cause its closer to home and stuff. Stuff being that I can apply for jobs in the morning in the other stores. That way I can try and balance two jobs and get paid semi-decently. And if I make enough, I can buy a car!! But lets not get ahead of our selves. First I have to see what happens, I still dont know if they are actually going to approve the transfer.

Well, aside from all this, my life has been pretty calm...maybe saying this will jinx it, I dont know. All I know is that I already got my lil sis her christmas gift (her new cellphone) and that my mom already dropped a hint about what she wants (a microwave oven). Wonder what the rest of my family wants (meaning my dad and older sis). Hope they dont get on my case for asking for equally expansive gifts...aw, who am I kidding with that one? They ARE going to make a show about it. Never mind, what they cant get me, I can get my self. Whatever...till next time!

Living mindlessly from one day to another

2007-10-19T06:02:41Z

At least thats how it all feels to me. I'm not an idiot, I know its all my fault if I dont bother to make my life better. But I just know that if I dont get some stuff I need (like a car), I'm not gonna be able to move forward. Days pass me by like nights and since I cant leave the house at night, I end up doing nothing. Heck, its 1:22 am and I'm writing in live journal. And just to amuse my self I keep going to the mini-market near my house. My usual excuse is that I want to buy some candy...half the time I do that, its not about the candy. Its just to get out of the house and feel like I've done something. The bad part is that I end up buying stuff and drain my bank account bit by bit.

That reminds me that a few days back I offered my mom some cash for gas and she had the balls to ask for more than what I offered ( I usually give her around 10$ a week). When I reprimanded her about it she also had the balls to get mad. Its not my fault she doesnt know know how to manage the money my father gives her. I shouldnt have to pay for whatever mistakes she makes.

Anyway, I've been also fretting over my cellphone service change. I mean, do I really want a cellphone THAT expensive, do I really need the 42$ a month rate? When I keep thinking about it, I keep coming back to "yes". If I have to spend on a phone, I want it to be one I like, and if I'm going to stop fretting over not having enough minutes or freedom, I am gonna need the second rate they are offering. I just have to save enough so that the impact of the purchase isnt too much of a bother to my pocket. Up until now, I've decided that the purchase must be done the last week of this month, or within the first few days of the next one cause my minutes expire the 5th of November. That way it'll be like a fourth month of no worry over cellphone bills. Just a very sad feeling of missing some money, then re-making the money as the month passes and just start paying my bill the next month. After that is just one fixed rate of 47$ (thanks to taxes) for unlimited made and recieved calls and text messeges, voice-mail, caller ID, call waiting, conference calls, no contract, cancel anytime. I sound like an infomercial ...

Well, I think I'm done....no wait, woeh is me, *emos emos emos* I wanna die, no I dont, no one loves me, yes they do I just to emo to see it, realization of the aformentioned statement, *cries like a little bitch and latches out at the world*. There I'm good... for now.

License to kill?

2007-09-17T08:31:58Z

Yeah....many of you might not get that. What I mean to say is that I got my driver's license....HALLELUYA!! Yeah, well, that short dance of glory was cut very fast by the fact that I dont own a damn car. And that my parents dont want me to drive their cars without them. So, I'm saving for a car! But since my job pays me crappy, I have to either wait a long ass while or get another job (Better paying job or just handle two jobs...which ever happens first.). Thank god I'm good at saving money for big plans cause otherwise, I'd already be throughly screwed. Thanks to my money managing powers I was able to pay for driving classes and exam expences. I'm also able to pay other things that my parents dont cause they cut me off....but thats another story. And can you believe now they are asking ME for money? *Scoffs* What nerve! Dad still makes more that I do and I'm taking care of most of my own expences (cause I still eat at home sometimes). I also finished studying (not that much came out of that...) so they dont spend on books and classes for me anymore. Where the hell did all the money go? I swear, as their expences shrink, so does their pocket! And they arent paying the house anymore! Even with the IVU shit, they should be plenty ok, right? I'm also helping with gas money cause now I'm driving. Whatever, they give me headaches, lets not talk about them anymore. Well, about cars, I dont know much about them, but my sister's fiance can help me a bit. I dont know, I'll figure it out.

Driving lessons and other things, oh my!!

2007-08-05T02:30:34Z

Well, I finally got first class....after changing teachers. This one was nice, thou the class is at 8:30. Yeah, the people that know me KNOW that I'm not awake by then. So that day (friday) I got up, suprisigly energetic. I was surprised cause I hand slept until 4 in the morning. So I got in to the car and she inmediatly starts to correct me, but it wasnt in a bad way. She didnt make me feel insulted or looked down upon. I was actually greateful for her advice.

At first I was fine....until she told me I was driving to Fajardo....and made me go through the ever curvy roads of the country side there. As expected, I got a bit dizzy, but continued anyway. We stopped in the mall at Fajardo that has a Walmart in it so I could go up to the ATM and draw out the cash for the leason. She was nice about it, but I'm pretty sure she didnt like having to stop for that.

Well, the lady was ok with most of my driving, she said I have good control of the steering weal. She was just worried about how nervous I was. Well, I guess she was being honest about the control thing cause: 1. She didnt have a problem talking on the phone none stop (her husband was bothering her every 5 minutes), and 2. Her niece had no problem taking a long ass nap in the back seat (could also be cause maybe she's the type of person to sleep through a tornado ... lucky ... ). Another fun fact about my class is that, althou my teacher was nice to me, she sure as hell wasnt to the other drivers on the road. Remember people, road rage is one of the many causes for accidents, so be nice.

Well, as for other things in my life, I'm doing something about my weight cause I want my energy level to improve. Its pretty simple to follow stuff. All I do is eat in portions and excersize for 30 min.

Other stuff I've been up to? Just visiting gaia a lot and reading some newly adquired manga (thanks Desi).

Well, besides me and my sister plotting to make a mini kitchen or at least buying a mini fridge, I have nothing else to talk about really.

Well, later!!

P.s.: My birthday is august 20. Even a "happy birthday" is apreciated on that day.

Happy to go out.

2007-07-26T06:02:14Z

Lately I've been going out more. With family and friends that is. I'm just happy to have a social life. Its been a while since I've gone out much. My mind isnt bothering me so much with negative thoughts cause I'm too busy going out and getting visited by friends.

I also like to share stuff with this friend I have online, we've seen each others photos. No, its not a boyfriend (lord knows I'll never make that mistake twice) and besides he is taken by a very sweet guy...yeah, he's gay. Anyway, we like to talk online too share similar pass times and we seek advise from each other. Since he likes to live in pink clouds, I ground him. And since I'm a pessimist, he sometimes help s me see the good side of things...sometimes.

I've also taken some advise from my lil sis ( lil but caring and smart sis) about helping my self do some changes in my life. I hope it works. I've been trying things to better my self, I still fail at some, but I'll get the hang of things.

Still waiting for my driving classes. The teacher put off the classes for this week cause she had other students on the only days I could. Since the other days I have to work early and she only gives classes early. Man, I want to take the test some time THIS year thank you!

Well, thats really all I wanna share. Later!!

Still Standing

2007-07-02T04:23:26Z

I went through some shit this month...it wasnt the worst in the world, it hurt, but I'm still standing. Trying my hardest every day not to let it get to me. Guess some chapters in my life have been closed, but new ones have openned. I'm sure it was all for the best in the end. Life does continiue after hardships, its our option to live our lives after it, or live dead to the world. I want to keep going, even if sometimes it all seems so hopeless. Living to tell is good, actually telling others...its good warning. Lets us share it, its better than leaving anything inside. If we dont let somethings out, it rots us from the core and spreads. We all have to try and not let our selves be our own undoing. Its hard, I know...but you are never really alone.

P.S. I dont know what to call it...a poem, lyrics, reflexive typing? I dont know, I just felt like writing it while I was thinking of what I went through this month. It wasnt so bad, but I still felt bad.

Sugar comas and more....

2007-06-14T04:52:24Z

Ugh, gotta stop eating so much damn candy!!! Sugar and me dont get along, too much of it and I get to feel like I'm either a drug addict braking the habbit (I tremble, sweat a lot, feel sick and have huge headaches), or I pass out and wake up feeling like a truck hit me.

On other news, been applying relentlessly to other places to see if I can get a job at least closer to my house. I've applied to 2 hotel, gone to 1 job convention , gone to 1 interview from the job convention and applied to 3 stores up to now....four counting Plaza Gigante. I'm still yet to go to Consorcio del Noreste....which I will do next...after I drop of the application for Plaza Gigante. All I want really is to at least work closer for the same shitty amount. It would save me headaches with my parents.

I finally got to see where the driving lessons teacher lives. Maybe now I can finally start taking the damn classes I've been after. I want my driver license!! Oh, and thank you Haidee for directing us to the place.

The drama at work escalated when I was forced in to confessing of things that a co-worker has been doing wrong after two new girls left pointing at her as the reason why. But the managers are keeping an eye on her and things have been relatively peaceful. We ow have another set of new girls, one being really an old floor employee. She happens to be friends with the trouble maker so I cant help but feel the need to watch my back. We have been playing nice though, and she almost seems caught off gaurd at how nice I am to her.

And now, a bit more about my daily life. Man, my body hurts so much lately, I cant stand it sometimes so I try to rest a lot on my free days. I've also been playing games on my PSP...my new two games to be exact. I bought Sega Genesis Legends and Popolocrois at EB games in BELLZ. Mainly cause it was ten bucks off the prize for the game, NEW! I told chibiflare (Haidee) about it, she saw it as a good deal too and bought it. I love to share about good shopping deals like that. So now we both squeal over the game together, although she is more ahead in the game than I am. She's been visiting me plenty lately, which is fine with me cause her presence chases away some of my boredom. But I've been buying candy as snacks when ever she is over here, so I end up eating a lot and passing out after she is gone.

Well, thats all really, later!!

Midnight tummy aches

2007-04-13T14:10:48Z

Ugh, I've got to stop eating at midnight. Ok, I dont normaly do this, this is just something I did these two past nights. I ate strong foods at midnight cause both times I got very hungry. This, on both nights, caused me some serious tummy pains. So this morning I'm not only up thanks to the same fucking annoying as hell noise my mom makes (and my dog). But this time I'm also up cause I didnt really sleep much anyway, why? cause of my tummy!! Next time I'm just gonna eat a cup of Jellow and go to bed. I always get a bit peckish at that hour, but never really hungry (which is what happened these past two nights). Actually, the few nights I fall asleep early, I wake up at midnight to have some juice or some jellow. So any sudjestions to go to sleep early wont really work with me, sorry. Well, I'm done whinning...I think....So, se ya all next time. BYE!